The X- Factor
Why is it that when you’re ready to move on, you really aren’t? Or is it the fact that maybe pieces of you still remain a part of that certain someone. It’s funny how love is or works. One moment you think you have everything but it’s not precisely it. The everything you been searching for. The funny thing about LOVE is you try to convince yourself that perhaps if you would have done something different, things would have works out. That’s just it.
Everything is about compromise but how much are you willing to give up to find mutual ground. Then there’s the whole “lets remain friends” scenario. This scenario works out to a great degree, especially with the whole “friends with benefits” type of thing. However if you’re not really this type of guy then emotions start to get thrown in the mix and then eventually, slowly but surely, things get back to "Why you broke up in the first place." Thus the truth remains you’re still in LOVE with this person but you know that nothing will ever make it work out again. Maybe you just outgrew each other or just got tired of one another.
The whole male and female thing is complicated. A lot of men can stay friends with their ex’s and even have friends that are females but a lot of those men also end up sleeping with them from time to time. Perhaps it’s just me being naïve but I always thought that one can remain friends with a female and just keep it strictly platonic. I think that’s just it, the X factor, the fact that she was the first to ever get too close, so close that we became more. As time progressed however things just fell apart. I sit here and wonder, sometimes, how did it all go wrong, a lot of it of course is my fault.
You see when you get involved with an older woman its all or nothing. You either give them everything that you are or you just aren’t giving enough. I just wanted something to call my own and that’s when the problems began. I know how the saying goes “You give a little, to get a little.” It’s vice versa. Things fall apart, something had to give. Perhaps one day I’ll be ready and willing to make that type of commitment or sacrifice. I was willing but not as much as I thought I was. LOVE is really confusing but in the game of love there really are no rules, especially when it comes to the X factor.
Everything is about compromise but how much are you willing to give up to find mutual ground. Then there’s the whole “lets remain friends” scenario. This scenario works out to a great degree, especially with the whole “friends with benefits” type of thing. However if you’re not really this type of guy then emotions start to get thrown in the mix and then eventually, slowly but surely, things get back to "Why you broke up in the first place." Thus the truth remains you’re still in LOVE with this person but you know that nothing will ever make it work out again. Maybe you just outgrew each other or just got tired of one another.
The whole male and female thing is complicated. A lot of men can stay friends with their ex’s and even have friends that are females but a lot of those men also end up sleeping with them from time to time. Perhaps it’s just me being naïve but I always thought that one can remain friends with a female and just keep it strictly platonic. I think that’s just it, the X factor, the fact that she was the first to ever get too close, so close that we became more. As time progressed however things just fell apart. I sit here and wonder, sometimes, how did it all go wrong, a lot of it of course is my fault.
You see when you get involved with an older woman its all or nothing. You either give them everything that you are or you just aren’t giving enough. I just wanted something to call my own and that’s when the problems began. I know how the saying goes “You give a little, to get a little.” It’s vice versa. Things fall apart, something had to give. Perhaps one day I’ll be ready and willing to make that type of commitment or sacrifice. I was willing but not as much as I thought I was. LOVE is really confusing but in the game of love there really are no rules, especially when it comes to the X factor.
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